Today I received the information about preschool for Dietrich. I have been waiting and waiting and checking the mail because I am so ridiculously excited about preschool! I didn't get to go to preschool because it wasn't readily available and also it was expensive. And I love school! I love the first day of school and I love getting new stuff for school and I just know I am going to love sending my little boy to school!
Next week we will get a postcard from his teacher and then I will learn who is first teacher is going to be! The following week we get to go to his classroom and meet his teacher and see where he will be, and then the week after that he starts school! We got our list of school supplies and I can't wait to go buy him glue-sticks, and dry-erase crayons, and a backpack that fits a 9x12 sheet of paper. I called my mom this morning and told her about all the upcoming school stuff and how I want to cry because I am SO SO excited for him, he is going to love preschool! And then I read this post about growing up/old and the start of school and then I started crying because oh-my-GOD he is STARTING PRESCHOOL.
I've been a little worried about how he is perfectly potty trained but doesn't like to do any of it by himself. I have to remind myself this is preschool, these teachers teach 3 year olds, they know that some of them still need help going to the bathroom. This morning when he threw a fit and hit his friend because he wanted the toy I thought "he can't do that at preschool!" But he is three, and that is what three year olds tend to do, he won't be the first kid in a preschool class to throw a fit. I don't have to tell the teacher that I am so excited for him but I've also never left him anywhere but with family, and oh my gosh how will I survive that? That all of a sudden I'm afraid he will miss me and be upset and I just want him to be excited and have fun! And now I'm not just crying because I'm so excited for him and all the fun he will have but because all of a sudden and without my realizing it this:
Turned into this:
And he's going to preschool in just a few short weeks, leaving me for 3.5 hours two days a week and Lenorah and I will miss him during that short time and wonder what fun things he is doing without us. Then he will come home and tell us about the things he made and the letters and numbers he is learning and he will make new friends! (maybe I will make new friends too!) It will be wonderful and sad and exciting and anxiety inducing and we will all love it.